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Through my eyes, i see,
Ears, I hear,
Mind, I perceive,
Home is where your heart is.
That night, Kyle didn’t show up. Elik ditched his dad and went home to check on Kyle. The light wasn’t on and there was an incomparable emptiness. Elik checked his mobile phone, but there was no message. That was unlike Kyle. Elik wasn’t worried that Kyle didn’t call. It is the uncertainty that Elik is afraid of. Elik is a genius and he is always in control. However, Kyle is a enigma. Just when Elik thought he had Kyle figured out, an unforseenable variable manifested. This time Elik was totally lost. He could only do what most people do, wait.
Kyle had a plan. A salvage plan. There was no preferable option. He had formulated many scenarios in his mind but none of them worked. The very last draw was to confront Syd. Kyle's intuition told him that Syd would stop Elik from seeing him. Elik is Syd’s one and only son. He is expected to succeed Syd, get married, and have kid(s). Not to mention, Syd will never let father and son to sleep with the same guy.
Syd also knew Kyle would come. He knows Kyle doesn’t trust him and he doesn’t blame Kyle. He was the one who betrayed Kyle. And now Kyle and Elik are seeing each other. He reaps what he sows. He felt conflicted about Kyle and Elik. He loves them both and yet he can’t help feeling jealous.
When Syd first learned Kyle and Elik were dating, Syd was infurious. Syd thought Kyle was using his son, Elik, to get to him. Later, he found out Kyle was innocent. Kyle didn’t even know Syd and Elik are related until today. Life is funny. Both father and son are in love with the same man. Maybe it is in their DNA. Syd told himself his own son, Elik, is fulfilling his promise to Kyle.
Syd was already waiting outside when Kyle arrived.
“Welcome to my humble home.” Syd said.
“No need for pleasantry. You know why I am here.” Kyle got right to the point.
“Ok. Big boy. Please follow me to my study.” Syd beckoned Kyle to follow.
The study room was a nice warm room. A bit too warm for the weather.
“I love Elik and I won’t leave him as long as he is willing to stay.”
“I am glad to hear. Please protect my son.”
Kyle was confused. Syd was not acting like himself.
“What are you scheming?” Kyle looked at Syd suspiciously. This was not the Syd he remembered, an ambitious cunning man who would do anything to achieve his goal. This one before him was an old tired man. His fangs were no longer sharp.
Syd looked at Kyle, remembering the first time he lay eyes on him. Young, handsome, and bright, he is beautiful. Now Kyle is older. He is still a good looking man but the light in his eyes are not as bright as before. There is a sadness around him.
“We both have changed, haven’t we?” Syd sighed and reached out, wanting to give Kyle a hug, but Kyle shrugged off reflexively.
“I deserve it.” Syd said with a nonmaskable sadness.
“What’s wrong, Syd?” Kyle couldn’t help but concern. He still disliked Syd but the hatred was not as strong as before. Elik had healed Kyle considerably.
“Kyle, you are a good man. I want my son to grow up like you. Do you know I name him after you?”
Elik, an analogous anagram of Kyle. No wonder it sounds a bit odd.
Kyle studied Syd. Kyle knew something was wrong.
“Do you mind hearing an old man out?” Kyle was silent. Syd took it as a yes. “I was a runaway teenagers. My dad died when I was young. My mom is a good person. I was happy with just my mom until she remarried. My stepfather touched me, and I ran away."
"Oh my god. I have no idea. I am so sorry, Syd." Kyle started to weep. Syd laughed.
"No, my stepdad is a very nice person. He never touches me. I was foolish. I couldn’t accept my mom is with another man. I went away.” Syd’s eyes started to get wet. “I had no money. I was so hungry that I thought I was going to pass out. Then a car drove by and the driver rolled down the window. He asked me if I was working.” Kyle no longer looked at Syd with those angry eyes. The hatred he had for Syd had turned into an unexplainable sadness. “I didn’t know what he meant and he asked me again if I was working. He was looking at me with those lustful eyes. I finally understood and got into his car.”
“Oh Syd. You could have told me.” Kyle was drying his tears with the back of his hands.
“Kyle. There was nothing to tell. He was a good client. He paid me a lot of money and he was gentle with me. After the first one, the rest just came naturally. I have slept with both men and women, young and old, black, white and Asians. I had no friend. The only thing I trust was money.” Syd held out his hands, one stroking Kyle’s hair and the other one Kyle’s face. Kyle didn’t back away this time. “Then one day an older man showed up. He slept with me. When I told me I was a runaway, he felt sorry and took me home. He bathed me, fed me, and taught me how the world operates. He told me I looked like his son. He even paid me to go to college. I thought he was after my body but he wasn’t. He had only slept with me once. When he died he left me all his money and he told me I was like a son to him. I didn’t think about it much then. But when I went home I felt so lonely without him around. It was the very first time I bonded with another person.”
Kyle now was holding Syd crying. He could still feel the familiar scent of Syd. It was just like yesterday. “You could have told me. I would help you.”
“There was nothing to help. I was rich and successful when I met you. I didn’t care about my past.” Syd replied. “Then I met you. You dazzled me. So young, handsome, and innocent, you are out of my league. Nevertheless, I pursued you. When you first told me you were a virgin, I was so shocked. I didn’t know what to do. Compared to you, I felt so filthy. I was afraid to touch you. I thought I would break you. You were like a crystal, so delicate.”
“I wasn’t that delicate. You always treated me like a child. I was a already a adult. Like Elik, I am a genius. I know how to survive.” Kyle replied.
“That’s true. Maybe that why Elik understands you and I couldn’t.” Syd apologized. “I should have trusted you but I had never met anyone like you. I was confused. I thought about you all the time, worried about you. You told me you love me but I was scared to reciprocate.”
“Sorry I didn’t know I was so demanding. You were my first. I guessed I was a bit too overbearing.” Kyle didn’t want Syd to feel bad. “I was head over heels for you.”
“I knew you were. I felt the same way too. On our anniversary night, I was going to ask you to move in with me. It would be the happiest moment of my life. You remembered I was up for a promotion?”
“I did. You were so excited but you never showed up for our anniversary.” Kyle remembered the day Syd told him about the promotion. Syd was so excited like a puppy and he wouldn’t stop talking about the money.
“The promotion was for me to take but there was a rumor. Someone took a picture of us kissing and sent it to my boss. My boss, who later became my father-in-law, is a homophobe. He wanted a family man, a man with a wife and children, to succeed him. He would never accept a gay man. So I lied. I knew his daughter has a crush on me. On our very first anniversary night, instead of staying with you, I asked her out and slept with her. And you knew the rest.”
“Syd. Why? I don’t understand. You didn’t need that job. We would be fine. I was about to graduate. I would make enough money for both of us to live comfortably.” This question had been bothering Kyle for too long.
“My Kyle. I am greedy. Enough is never enough. I wanted more. I wanted fame. I wanted power. I wanted money. You will never make that much amount of money. I don’t want to be a nobody. I want to be someone famous. Someone people look up to. I chose money over you. I was so foolish.” Syd was weeping now, buried his face in Kyle’s chest. Kyle held Syd tightly, trying to understand the pain Syd had been enduring all these years. He could feel the sorrow flowing out from Syd.
“Syd. It is okay. You were only scared. You should have faith in me. We could have figured out something. With your talent and my brain, we could have made it.”
“It was my fault. I underestimated you. I always thought you were too young. I should have told you. If I did, we probably still be together. I regretted it every day.” Syd and Kyle sobbed. Their tears wet each other. It hurt them to see each other cry.
“Syd, I want to say I forgive you but it was too difficult. It was like hell. I shunned everyone off. I changed. I put up a facade but deep down I was so lonely until Elik showed up. Since you are his father, I guess I have to thank you.”
“Kyle, I know it is unfair to ask you to forgive me. But can you forgive a dying man. Kyle, I have cancer. The doctor told me I only have three months to live.”
Kyle’s world had just turned into hell again. There was no word exchanged between them.
“Don’t feel bad. I am happy I have a son and he is in love with a wonderful man. You are what I ever wanted and he is who I ever wanted to be.”
Kyle was torn. He loves Elik but he still has feeling for Syd. What could he do?
“Kyle, I wish we were still together.”
Kyle was speechless. Syd leaned over and pressed his lips against Kyle’s. Kyle didn’t resist and he let Syd’s tongue to explore him. He could feel Syd’s hands reaching under his shirt.
“No, Syd. We shouldn’t....” Kyle said it almost out of breath.
Syd stopped. “I am sorry. I just too emotional.” They were still holding each other. Syd realized he was getting hard. “Oops. Guess I am not quite dead yet.” Syd laughed at his own erection. Kyle was getting hard too at the sight of Syd’s erection.
“I should go. Elik is expecting me.” Kyle removed himself from Syd.
“Please don’t tell Elik.” Syd said.
“Elik is not a kid. He is mature enough to make his decision. He is going ask me. I can’t lie to him.”
“No, I mean the kiss. Don’t tell Elik I kiss you or he will hate me.”
Kyle paused for a second. “No, I won’t. It is part of my fault.”
Kyle left thinking all things happened between Syd and him. Life is funny. He met Elik and they fell in love, and Elik turned out to be Syd’s son.
When Kyle returned home, Elik was waiting for him. “Where have you been, Kyle? I was so worried.” Elik wrapped himself around Kyle.
“I had some personal things I needed to deal with.”
“What personal things?” Elik asked? Kyle has decided never to lie to Elik. However, he still remembered the kiss. There are things you just can't tell your spouse. So Kyle did what most men do: ignore.
"I am going to take a shower. It has been a long day." Kyle took off his clothes in the living room, and headed for the bathroom. Elik instinctively suspected there was something Kyle wasn't telling him. He picked up Kyle's clothes and sniffed. He could detect a faint scent of cologne, just like his dad's. He also checked Kyle's underwear and he saw some familiar secretion, precum. Elik now was a bit upset. Not only Kyle didn't show up for dinner, he didn't even explain and walked right past him. Elik followed Kyle to the bathroom.
"Something you want, Elik?"
Elik didn't say a word. He kneed down until he faced directly Kyle's groin. Kyle still felt a bit weird even though they are now officially a couple.
"Kyle, I want to smell your dick. Don't move." Elik asked.
Kyle jumped. He had never considered such question coming from Elik. Elik was overflowing with jealousy.
"That's weird. I am getting in the shower."
But Elik was a bit faster, he grabbed Kyle's and sniffed him. He could smell precum on him. Not only that, Kyle was still very wet.
"Why were you so sexually aroused? By whom? I didn't see you all day."
Kyle ignored Elik and stepped into the shower. Elik was very upset now. He had planned his whole day for Kyle and him. That night was supposed to special. Kyle had been refraining from having sex with Elik; however, Elik got Kyle to agree to further their relationship to the physical level, if they manage to stay together more than a year. Elik had been waiting all day but Kyle didn't seem to care.
Kyle could sense Elik was upset. He decided it was the time to tell him.
"Why don't you join me in the shower?"
Elik was happy to obey. Shower sex. Finally. He grabbed the soap and scrubbed every single inch of Kyle literally. Kyle spotted his famous monster hard on. This was the very first time they were both butt naked. Kyle's face turned red like a tomato.
"We are boyfriends now. Don’t be shy." Elik held Kyle tight and started to kiss him passionately. Kyle responded by gently rubbing Elik's penis. It looked and felt just like Syd's. Kyle felt guilty thinking about Syd when he was with Elik. It was just their bodies were too much alike.
"I love you, Kyle."
"Elik, I love you too." Elik could almost cry. That was the very first time Kyle reciprocated his feeling. Kyle explored Elik’s body, fingers over his firm abdomen, kisses behind his neck, and manhoods pressing against each other. Elik was a little overwhelmed. He didn’t know how long he could hold. He was completely at Kyle’s mercy.
"Kyle, I can't hold any...." Elik looked at Kyle and saw the smile he had fell in love with.
“Don’t worry. I’ve got you.” Kyle reached down and rubbed the spot underneath the head of Elik’s penis. Elik’s penis is lovely, pink, round, not as big as Kyle’s but absolutely adorable. Kyle could feel Elik’s sec contracted. Elik’s body quivered and shot out loads and loads of semen. Kyle held Elik tight, enjoying the afterglow. Elik is still a beginner. He tried to copy Kyle but his hands were clumsy. He could tell Kyle’s wasn’t enjoying.
“Kyle, I don’t know how to. You need to teach me.” Elik was embarrassed. He wanted to reciprocate but he didn’t have the technique.
“Do you trust me?” Kyle said with his hands stroking Elik’s body.
“You know I do.”
Kyle positioned his giant erection between Elik’s thighs. Elik’s opened his eyes wide, with pupils dilated like an owl. He knew one day Kyle would make him his. Scared and excited, Elik said, “It is my first time. Be gentle.”
Kyle laughed. “No I am not going to fuck you. I am just going to rub against you. You are not ready for me yet.”
Elik could feel Kyle’s hot rod between his thighs. He was surprised Kyle was getting even bigger. Compared to Kyle’s, Elik’s penis seems hopelessly small. Kyle seemed to notice Elik’s disappointment.
“Elik, you have the cutest penis.” Kyle wanted Elik to know size doesn’t matter.
Kyle started humping Elik between his thighs. He didn’t enter Elik because he knew Elik’s not ready for him yet. Elik would need some training before he could take Kyle. Kyle increased his speed until he felt the familiar sensation raising from his groin.
“Elik, I am cumming...” Loads and loads of Kyle’s warm cum shot between Elik’s thighs. Elik wondered what it would be like to have Kyle inside, a thought both exciting and intimidating.
The best thing about show sex is they can wash off very easily. Kyle turned off the shower and towelled dry Elik. It was the first time Elik towelled dried by a man other than his own dad. Elik loved the attention.
It was about time to go to bed. Kyle picked Elik up and lowered him in bed. Both Kyle and Elik have similar physique but Elik doesn’t mind to be the submissive one.
It was time for Kyle to tell the truth. Elik could feel a sense of uncertainty radiating from Kyle. "What's wrong, Kyle?"
"Elik, I need to tell you something. Promise me you won't get mad."
"I can't promise you unless you tell me what it is. I promise I will try." Elik smiled. Kyle felt so lucky to have such wonderful young man in his arms.
Kyle told Elik everything about Syd and him, from how they met to why they broke up. Kyle also told Elik how lonely he was until Elik showed up.
"I am lucky to have you. I will treasure you, Elik. You make me happy."
Kyle was expecting something similar from Elik but he was awfully quiet. In fact, Elik was stone cold. He pulled away from Kyle.
"I can't believe it. My dad is gay and your are his lover? You slept with my dad and now you are sleeping with me? I trusted you. I even told everyone on Facebook that we are now boyfriends." Kyle felt Elik was drifting away. He felt helpless, just like the time when Syd broke up with him.
"Elik, you have to trust me. I didn't know you are his son until tonight. That's why I went to talk to him. I told him I won't let history repeat. I knew he would try to break us apart. " Kyle pleaded. His body trembled involuntarily. Elik hated to see how scared Kyle was.
"You should have told me. I want to be there for you."
Kyle didn't know what to tell Elik. Should Kyle tell him about his fear? He was worried Elik may pick Syd over him. He didn't want Elik to leave. That would be too much for Kyle to bare. "I thought you may leave me. I know how you worship your dad."
"I love my dad but I love you too. Have more faith in me. I am sorry my dad treated you so badly." Elik gently stroked Kyle's long smooth black hair.
"I should thank him. Because of him, I have a chance to meet you. But now, if you want to leave me, I understand." Kyle were all teared up. It hurt Elik to see Kyle all upset but he couldn't help feeling insecure. Kyle slept with his dad and now with him. He had precum in his underwear and he went to see his father, his ex-lover, without him. There were too much to digest.
"No, honey. That's not what I mean. It is just bizarre that you and father and now you and I. Did you think about dad when you touched me? Why did you have precum on your underwear?"
"Please Elik. How can I make you trust me? I am a healthy man. I can't help to get a hard on when I see a cute guy." Kyle felt a bit guilty lying to Elik. He did think about Syd when Elik was naked. The resemblance was amazing. Elik grabbed Kyle's balls and gave them a little squeeze. Kyle looked at Elik confused.
"Don't you cheat on me. Seriously." Elik gave Kyle a very stern look.
Kyle felt a slight chill. He never knows Elik is the jealous type.
"Let's go to bed. We need to meet up with your dad tomorrow. He has something to tell you." Kyle rolled around and pretended to sleep. He had talked too much today already.
The next day Kyle accompanied Elik to see Syd. The air was thick as blood. Elik knew something was wrong but he couldn’t put a finger on it. Syd welcomed them and gave them a hug. It was difficult for Kyle to remain claim. He turned his head away. Syd told the news simple and clear: he was dying. They cried more until they were all too tired to cry. Elik truly loved Syd. Kyle was conflicted. He had a lot of things to say to Syd but he couldn't say them in front of Elik.
The next few months, Syd deteriorated very quickly. From a strong, powerful and handsome man, he turned into a skeleton. He was dying.
“Hey, Dad. Kyle and I are here to see you.” Elik called Syd to let him know we were here. “How are you feeling?”
“Like hell.” Syd replied very softly that we almost didn’t hear.
“I made you shark fin soup, your favorite.” Kyle said.
Syd opened his eyes and forced a smile. Then he made a painful grimace. We knew he was hurting.
“Would you like some?” Elik offered to feed him. He tested the temperature of the soup and put a small spoonful in Syd’s mouth. The soup leaked out from the corner of his mouth and onto the the bed. Syd hoped them didn’t notice.
“Where is Kyle?” Syd groaned.
Kyle put his hand on Syd’s face. Kyle’s eyes were wet but he fought hard not to cry.
Syd didn’t want to go. He wanted to see Kyle and Elik’s house. He wanted to see them get married, or maybe even have their own test tube babies. He knew they had forgiven him. He imagined Christmas dinner with them and their kids. He wanted to know what a family with Kyle will be like. Both Elik and Kyle are smart and destined to have a bright future.
He wanted to be part of the future.
"Father you are okay." Elik said with much sadness.
Kyle cradled Syd’s head in his heads.
“Please.... forgive....” Syd tried hard to say those few words. He felt a sharp pain in his stomach. An overpowering exhaustion came over him. His eyelids were getting heavy and mouth was dry.
“We both love you.” Kyle said, tears flowing from his eyes. Elik tried to dry Kyle’s tears with the back of his hands. Kyle remembered the night he first met Syd, the very first time they had sex, and, unfortunately, the night Syd broke up with him.
Another sharp pain shot through from Syd’s groin all the way to his chest. Yet, his felt peaceful. His soul was ready to leave this broken shell. The pain was lessening. He saw his mom crying with a overflowing sense of sorrow. He felt helpless. Then his step father appeared and his mom was smiling again. Syd was grateful. He didn’t run away from home and learned to treat his step father like his own.
“Father, I will take care of Kyle. We will be fine. Don’t worry about us.” Elik sobbed.
Syd overhear Dean Leslie announced this year Telford Centennial Scholarship recipient, the youngest in history. Syd turned his head and he saw Kyle sitting next to him. Young and bright, Kyle shined.
Syd could feel a familiar hand stroking his face. The scene had changed. Now he was in the office with his boss. Instead of lying to his boss and marrying his daughter, he came out to his boss. His boss was surprised he own protege is gay but admired his courage and recognized Syd’s talents and ability.Syd was promoted and couldn’t wait to tell Kyle the news. Syd finally confessed his love and asked Kyle to move in with him. It was his happiest moment in his life.
Syd felt both Elik and Kyle, the two men he loves the most, leaned down on him.
Syd was in a house and Kyle was waiting for someone. A younger version of Syd came in and Kyle smiled. Syd looked at the younger version of himself, he saw his purpose.
He was finally at peace.
It was hard to tell Syd was gone. He looked so peaceful, with a beautiful smile on his face. His body was still warm. Elik was crying on Kyle’s shoulder, but Kyle didn’t say a word. There was no word to express his feeling. Syd's soul will continue to live on in his loved ones. When he is ready, he will move on. He will become one with the unknown and, if he wants to, he will become a new creation.
This time he will learn from his mistakes, and become a real gentleman..